How in the HELL am I supposed to trust him back in a relationship?
To begin with, the first time he told me he was quite clearly breaking up with me because we weren't going to have enough time for each other next year.
Uh, lie.
Second break up involves rainbow coloured tiny woman who is, damnit, skinnier.
So, if he has dumped me for another woman (sort of) already, why does he think I will willingly get back with him when I KNOW he likes her???
You can't see me, but I have my frustrated face on.
Seven (ish) emails last night, 31 calls today, two texts.
Most of them wanting me back, I presume. Didn't answer any of the calls.
Don't get me wrong, it's not that I wouldn't like what we had back, or what I thought we had anyway. I had crushes while we were going out, and I got over them. Admittedly, one of them came back, but only after we had broken up, so that's fair, really.
But the problem is, I just cannot trust him back in a relationship. I'd be a jealous, possessive mess of a woman, and I like me carefree and empowered, thank you.
I'd constantly be looking at other women making sure he didn't get any kind of feelings for them, he'd never be able to be alone with any of the girls he's ever had crushes on again (and he's pretty good mates with them) without my head exploding, and actually, maybe I want to move on.
I know he's taking it badly, and I feel bad about that, but there is nothing I can do.
I can't reply, because I'm not going to give him false hope.
So that's that, really.
Depressing post, but short and sweet. Normal service will resume soon, involving pretty new hair and happiness, I hope.
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